Turning Point

Have you ever been so overwhelmed by a thought you were moved to tears? I’m not talking about one or two building up in your eyes. No. I mean straight up ugly crying while you’re smiling like a crazy ex-girlfriend.

That moment came for me about a year ago. At that point I had been in the middle of a self-development kick, thanks to the encouragement of some awesome women I came to know in an MLM team. Through videos, audiobooks, and uplifting stories from others, I began to recognize the importance of positive thinking. I strengthened my relationship with God. And to the point of this story, I drilled in on the idea that we all have a specific purpose to contribute to this world, using the gifts God gave us.

Here’s where I got stuck – I had no clue what my purpose was. And to be perfectly honest, I still don’t know entirely. I knew accounting was my full time job, but it certainly was not my life’s purpose. Yes, I understand now that your career does not have to be your purpose, but a year ago I thought they had to go hand in hand. I enjoy my job (most days), but I have more to offer the world. So I prayed about it. I asked God to reveal the path I’m meant to follow.

This went on for a month or two with no indication, no inkling of an answer. Then one night in the shower (I’m not the only one that has my best thoughts there, right?!), I thought to myself “I don’t even know what else I would do if I wasn’t an accountant. Except writing.” Cue the light bulb above my head, fireworks, ugly crying, and crazy smile.

I just stood there. Now what? I knew I had to start writing, but that’s about all I knew. I went to the store the next day and bought a spiral notebook. I set a daily reminder in my phone to make sure I wrote consistently. It’s still there. When it goes off, I make sure I start writing if I haven’t already. Some nights I work on various projects I have in process. Some nights I use writing prompts from Pinterest to get the creativity flowing. Other nights I just scribble out a bunch of gibberish. But I’m always writing. As the incredible Shonda Rhimes put it, “A writer is someone who writes every day. So start writing.”

I’m still not sure what I’m doing or where this passion will take me, but I know good things are to come. Writing wasn’t just something I did in high school and college to vent all of my feelings. It’s something God placed in my heart. I foolishly walked away from it when life got busy. And God showed me grace by placing in back in my heart so strongly that I could no longer ignore it. This was my turning point.

I’m far from perfect. I definitely don’t have all the answers. Heck, I have very few answers. But I want to share my journey on this path to discovering my purpose in the hopes that it will help others discover theirs. Who knows, we could start something great. Or this could be an epic fail. I hope you join me to find out how it ends.